The lost chapter
I wish to share some of my experience with you guys.
Every incident marks the beginning of a chapter. Recently, I found a lost chapter of mine. Yesterday, 18 December 2006 is a very disappointing day. First thing first it rains the whole day. Secondly, I have made an appointment which ends up with a miserable back fire. Everything seems to be going smoothly but in actual fact it does not. I failed to make this girl mine after 5.5 years marks a major defeat to my ‘love career’. Never mind it is all over. I have made a major decision that to put a full stop. Although it is a sad ending, it makes me grow faster and stronger. Actually, I felt that I am a little bird being freed out the cage, enjoying the fresh air from the open space.
I am not sure if the back fire worth mentioning. I hope that time had change her mind. I exchange time for chance. This time my position is simple, if unsuccessful, I would not pursue on the matter again. I intend to make my position clear and to see her reaction so I asked to meet her out for a chat. I thought that was a friendly intention. It might be the bad image created by me when I am in poly. It might be the wrong perception when she interprets my SMS. Hence, gave me a hard painful shock. Oh well, she take it as a 15 minutes chat. I believe the timing of the meeting implied that I am asking of a dinner. Well I was wrong. I meet her with an empty stomach. The shock came when she told me that she be meeting someone in half an hour time and traveling distant from point A to B itself might not be enough.
This is my guess. Her intention is to return me my paper and to make the meeting session as short as possible. She showed me a very black face when she met me. Fate!! What a good timing? I felt a bit sucky when she was in a bad mood. I don’t really believe she will be meeting her friend later, when she told me her plan (unjustified). Perhaps this is a desperate measure taken by her. This is still the same old her as I have known. Everything has gone history. What had done can’t be undone. I understand her position and will not put the blame on her. Fate is tricky and hard to be managed. I had learnt to accept fate long before I became a soldier.
I love to help people, thus I aimed to become a lecturer. I helped her on many things in her studies is on moral ground. I do hope that she understands that I do things is not for ulterior motives. Of course, when come to preparing of exam, I would more than willing to help if I got the time.
Over the years, I have changed a lot. Thanks to all the shit things given to me during the NS life. Thanks for the time allocated during all the guard prowling duties, I had done reflections to improve myself. A lot of event changed my perceptions to life. Yap, like what I had told many of my friends facing problems: The world is round and changing fast. Keeping yourself in the past makes you backwards. Hence, now I have decided to close this long winded chapter. Today, 19 December 2006, 1.15am I officially announced to end this chapter.
Of course, I would not stop helping myself as well as encouraging and help people wants to help themselves, as the next chapter continues…
cheers~~ Ting Siong
Every incident marks the beginning of a chapter. Recently, I found a lost chapter of mine. Yesterday, 18 December 2006 is a very disappointing day. First thing first it rains the whole day. Secondly, I have made an appointment which ends up with a miserable back fire. Everything seems to be going smoothly but in actual fact it does not. I failed to make this girl mine after 5.5 years marks a major defeat to my ‘love career’. Never mind it is all over. I have made a major decision that to put a full stop. Although it is a sad ending, it makes me grow faster and stronger. Actually, I felt that I am a little bird being freed out the cage, enjoying the fresh air from the open space.
I am not sure if the back fire worth mentioning. I hope that time had change her mind. I exchange time for chance. This time my position is simple, if unsuccessful, I would not pursue on the matter again. I intend to make my position clear and to see her reaction so I asked to meet her out for a chat. I thought that was a friendly intention. It might be the bad image created by me when I am in poly. It might be the wrong perception when she interprets my SMS. Hence, gave me a hard painful shock. Oh well, she take it as a 15 minutes chat. I believe the timing of the meeting implied that I am asking of a dinner. Well I was wrong. I meet her with an empty stomach. The shock came when she told me that she be meeting someone in half an hour time and traveling distant from point A to B itself might not be enough.
This is my guess. Her intention is to return me my paper and to make the meeting session as short as possible. She showed me a very black face when she met me. Fate!! What a good timing? I felt a bit sucky when she was in a bad mood. I don’t really believe she will be meeting her friend later, when she told me her plan (unjustified). Perhaps this is a desperate measure taken by her. This is still the same old her as I have known. Everything has gone history. What had done can’t be undone. I understand her position and will not put the blame on her. Fate is tricky and hard to be managed. I had learnt to accept fate long before I became a soldier.
I love to help people, thus I aimed to become a lecturer. I helped her on many things in her studies is on moral ground. I do hope that she understands that I do things is not for ulterior motives. Of course, when come to preparing of exam, I would more than willing to help if I got the time.
Over the years, I have changed a lot. Thanks to all the shit things given to me during the NS life. Thanks for the time allocated during all the guard prowling duties, I had done reflections to improve myself. A lot of event changed my perceptions to life. Yap, like what I had told many of my friends facing problems: The world is round and changing fast. Keeping yourself in the past makes you backwards. Hence, now I have decided to close this long winded chapter. Today, 19 December 2006, 1.15am I officially announced to end this chapter.
Of course, I would not stop helping myself as well as encouraging and help people wants to help themselves, as the next chapter continues…
cheers~~ Ting Siong
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